Penny for your thoughts….


When you can’t find the words to always say, it seems like songs can say exactly what it is that you want to say but can’t spit it out. Some songs be so on point that it almost scares you. How can someone else really be feeling the exact way I’m feeling right now?

Looking at this photo the song that instantly pops into my head is Usher- I will. The beginning lyrics to this song in case you don’t know is, I’ll pay a penny for your thoughts….a nickel for your kiss…you know that I will. Currently playing the song thinking about how I would listen to this song over and over back when it came out. I used to be in love with Usher. I was the girl who had posters of him hanging in my room. I would make all kinds of connections to make me love him even more. He’s a Libra but not just any Libra, he’s an October Libra. Yes, I believe there’s a difference between September Libras and October Libra. When his album 8701 came out, that’s all I needed to confirm my love for him. I am crazy like that. I think deeply into almost everything. It’s not even thinking deeply, it’s just me trying to find any kind of connection. So you’re probably wondering if I was born in 1978 like him. For those of you who don’t know 8701 is the reverse for 1078 which is October 1978 when Usher was born. But no, I was not born in 78. I actually was born in 87. So the numbers are there just not in the same order. I’m 1087, he’s 1078. Same thing same thing lol.

I once told a friend that I could listen to slow or sad songs all day but that doesn’t mean I’m depressed. I’ve also stated that being a photographer I often live off memories. Usher used to be one of those artist who I played on repeat. Only the slow jams though. I’m not a fan of anything he has uptempo except for his song My Way. OK maybe there’s one more and that will be You don’t have to call. Other than that, Usher please keep making slow songs.

Enough about Usher. I’ve taken time to learn how to read people more. I believe this has helped me a lot at work. I can quickly know who to place where and how well they will do. But when it comes to my relationship, I can read them but I don’t let them read me. Here I am wanting the affection but I won’t let my wall come completely down. He’ll remove one layer to only find a thicker layer right behind it. He would tell me that he will pay a penny for my thoughts but I know he would pay way more just to understand me. Well here I am to tell you that the walls are coming down. So maybe this is my Usher- Confessions post. Not really but I had to throw another Usher song in there. I’m ready to accept the love he’s ready to give. In Usher words….Can you get with it?

Listen to the music someone listens to and you’ll have a slighter chance of understanding them. Now my mix is really unpredictable at times but then again it still defines me in a strong way.

Leaving the scene….(poem)

10 08 for goodness sake 

I loved you

The Chinese zodiac says you’re a snake 

Glad I did some research 

It makes this heart hurt less 

But I still think of you 

Slithered right through my garden 

Hissing, kissing, caressing 

414, 8, 9, 10

Just in case you’re wondering 

My heart was all for Austin 

But I drowned him in Lake Michigan ~J.A.A.G 

Random blue days….

Usually I’ll try to find a photo to fit each post. This time I don’t want to include a photo. I want my readers to create their own vision when they’re reading this post.

You ever hear someone’s voice and you try to imagine how they look? Or you see them and you’re like you don’t look like a Justin. More like an Eric. Or maybe that’s just me. I’ve been told a time a two that I’m weird. But what does being weird really mean? I see nothing wrong with being different than the rest. So you enjoy your boring life of fitting in.

Have you ever met someone and literally got tongue tied? Or wanting to just run the other way because you were afraid to meet them? Most women want a fairy-tale love story but then reality sets in and you’re like that stuff will never happen. You’re right, most of it won’t happen. The other person will do things to make you feel special, blush, smile, whatever. But it never flows the way the movies and books lay it out. But when you do find that one who brings those butterflies inside and you can’t stop smiling, even when it’s years later, you stop and think, this is my fairy-tale love story.

Like J Cole says, “Love Yours”. No one has a better life than you do. You just have to love yours. Love what you have. Make the best of it. There’s always room for improvement, you just have to understand that and love it.

There’s not a day I don’t daydream about random things. I have to catch myself sometimes from not laughing out loud or smiling too hard. Sometimes I feel like crying and other days I’m as happy as can be for no in particular reason. It’s life! Ups and downs, smiles and frowns. Just keep moving.

Well I’m done rambling about nothing in particular. Hope everyone is having a wonderful day. I’ll be taking some time off for a trip to the east coast for the first time. Stay tuned for photos of my trip.