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Burn the bridges and build a fire

We still try to hide the things we feel

It all feels so real

But we know it’s surreal…

There’s something inside my head

That keeps turning spinning around

Don’t know how to get down

I’m falling under your skin

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A few photos from my experience at the surreal sea ion art show.

Roadtrip to endless love

In my head I spend hella time
Hella time you be on my mind
Wish I could strengthen what we’ve developed
But I sacrifice for the bottom line
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It’ll be push n pull on the balance beam
Tightrope. But I don’t slip
Finish line like a million miles
I just hope you’re down for the roadtrip. ~Rexx life raj

Bags packed and snacks on deck

Momma, I’m hitting the road.

Where to daughter?

It’s a journey.

The destination resonates inside.

What are you talking about daughter?

Mom, I’m headed out for a lifelong road trip.

With who?

I tell my mother:

I sat in an airport for hours waiting for a flight I did not know will happen. To travel to a city I did not know will be good to me. I stood in line for hours to get inside a place I had no clue of what to expect. If you could show me a list of all the faces in the room, there’s only one I will remember.

Mother, I’m headed on an everlasting love road trip.

I’m ready to see the sunrise on the edge of the highest cliff. I want to cruise down the long road that seems like it will never end. We will swerve around the curves barely holding on. I’ll tell you to slow down and you’ll reassure that you’re a good driver. We both will laugh because we know that my driving is just as crazy. I’m ready to eat from local diners in the middle of nowhere and get annoyed when gps fails us. I’m ready for hair blowing in the west coast breeze and back seat naps through the rocky mountains. I’m ready for foreign languages and unknown experiences. On this lifelong road trip, it’s ok if the car catches a flat or if we run out of gas.

Together we will figure it out….

…..to be continued.

Let’s drive west

Visit the suggested places

You read a post that says, “If you won a million dollars, what’s the first thing you’re going to do?” My thoughts after reading that is I’m going to sleep in the next day. I’ll go to work a little later and will just be in a great mood. I’ll still send my son off to school like normal. I’ll be happy with all the things I can pay off and the new things I’ll be able to invest in. My first verbal response will most likely be “Oh snap.” Yea, my level of excitement is very bland. People tell me all the time that I never get super excitement about anything. I do get excited I just don’t jump for joy or go over the top. My mind will be racing and my facial expression will go from a blank stare to a nice smile. But if they watched my eyes then they can tell that there’s excitement there. My eyes tell you everything that’s going on in my head.

When travelling to a different place or moving to a new city there’s always spots people are like “YOU HAVE TO GO THERE.” Whether it’s food, which it normally is or if it’s just a nice spot by the lake or something. I’ve been to a couple spots that people told me that I have to go visit. I love to eat but I don’t get excited about food like a lot of people. Unless it’s bread. I love bread. There’s only one time when I was like OMG I need to go back to that restaurant just for the bread. Well the entire order was delicious but the bread was just memorable. Unfortunately I don’t remember the name of the restaurant so I’ll probably never get a chance to go back and plus it was in Atlanta.

One of the places people talk a lot about is the Blanton art museum in downtown Austin. I drive by it and each time I say I need to go there. One of my friends even had a birthday celebration there and I still wasn’t able to go. So I finally got a chance to go. The only part that I loved the most was the Making Africa section. Seeing the different art pieces from the various artist was amazing and very inspiring. So if I had to tell someone to visit this museum, my reasoning behind it will be to visit the Africa section.

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This is one portion of the museum. Inside you’ll find various black and white abstract art.

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If you look up when you walk into this room, you’ll see a ceiling full of bones.

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This one was interesting because if you take a step back you will see a huge pile of mulch on the floor. I wonder how many people had to fit the urge to not touch it…

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This is the one thing that everyone would post when they visit the museum. Now I can say I finally have a photo of the “We belong here” sign.

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The only thing I could think of when I saw all these pennies is that my son would love to play in the middle and throw them around.

Will I ever visit the Blanton museum again? Most likely. There will be someone new to the city and I will have to show them around, so this will be one thing on the list. Also, I will like to go again to see if anything new will be inside. It’s nice that people suggest places to visit. Whether I get excited or not, I will go just to say I’ve been there too…

Now of course you will have to visit the museum to see more of what’s inside. These are just a few photos I snapped.

414 everywhere

How do you manage to make your presence known without stepping foot in the door?

How do you manage to move 1200 miles away and still remain in the city?

How do you do it?

I flew 1400 miles to get my mind off you and of course you followed me.

Checking into the hotel and guess what’s the room number?

Ma’am do you have any other rooms available because this is not going to cut it.

Sorry room 414 is the only one available.

You have to be kidding me.

Oh don’t act like you don’t pay attention to numbers.

I should be sleeping but yet, I look at the phone and the time is of course 4:14 in the morning.

Not to mention the last 5 songs have been nothing but tracks that enhance the thoughts of you.

How do you manage to stay silent but make sure you’re being heard?

Maybe one day I’ll just pop up like you do.

You do know that I only want you because I can’t have you?

Are you winning this game?

Nah, I think we’re both losing.

While you think you have me wrapped around your finger, I still take over your thoughts.

I’m still apart of memories that you will never forget.

I have something you want and the only way you can get it is if you come to me.

So who’s really winning?

But why are we competing?

Now it’s 4:41 a.m.

My phone beeps and what do you know, text from you “videos please?”

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Watch the short film 414 here.

Cracks….

When you smile
I wish to fill in the void
Because you seemed cracked by the pain of what your mind won’t ignore..
Cracks in your heart
They spoke to me
You couldn’t trust me
You wanted to push me away
But you loved me
So when you smile, just kiss me.
Hold on,
I’m right here
To piece everything together
The good, the fear
Tell me
Can you be sincere
And tell me what I lack
Because just like you
A lot of me has a lot of cracks.
So let’s take our time
Healing each other can be one of our goals
Just don’t go
Until we glue together all the cracks.

~Remy the writer